MY LIFE!

Last night, Lamont's called me around 11:30PM to let me know that Lamont had to be airlifted to UNC Chapel Hill Hospital.. Apprentaly, When Lamont's family came home they found him drunk passed out in his own vomit and blood. 

He had an emergency surgery to get his stomach pumped out and while they were pumping his stomach he died on the table, but they brought him back.

The reality is.. I'm so sad, pissed, angry at him. It's hard to watch someone you know and used to love so much go thru so much changes to the point where it actually destorys them.

Now this is the 2nd time that he's had to have his stomach pumped. I guess the first time, didn't scare him enough to stop drinking. It's sad to see that he doesn't care about anything in this world. He's so far gone that he can't even save himself. 

I don't expect him to be around much longer. Maybe it's best that he dies. I don't know.... I have alot of mixed emotions today. 

Tyler had a bad dream last night. Maybe he felt something was going on with his Daddy.

Well, I just wanted to check in to see how everyone's doing..

Peace out.. I'm gone..

 

Thank god, the weekend's here. I am at my momma's house chillin' in the da cut!

Lots of crazy things been goin on. My work schdule is finally about got back to normal this week. Lamont followed me around town this morning, and I pulled over because I was so damn mad.. Let's just say we got into a big-ass arguement, it's a long story, I'll have to explain it some other time.

I can't wait for our trip to CA in two weeks. I can't wait to get the hell outta here!!

V, I miss your darling ass! *GRINS!*

Glen, Call me!!!!! LOL

Well, We about to head to Wally-mart.

Peace out! 

My weekend was quite fun. Caroline called me on Friday after work and I went with her to Crabtree Valley Mall and looked around and then we went again back up there on Sat and Sat Night we went to the Downtown Raleigh Live. Fireworks and all it was cool! She even let me drive her new Toyota Scion!! That shit is off the hooook!!  But I don't want her 500.00 car payment!!! Caroline and I were suppose to go to the beach this morning, but we both overslept so maybe next weekend. 

I'm so sad today. I miss the f*ck outta Jason, man. I f*cking hate my house, my life and where the **ck I'm at in life. I f*cking hate Lamont for what he's done and torn my family apart. But I gotta keep my head above water and not to drown but sometimes I feel like drowning! 

But in the end---God's gonna take care of Lamont in his own special way! 

I gotta stay strong for Tyler and be the best that I can be!